Pursuit of Happiness

In my own words....

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My hands been dealt, the stakes are high.
All eyes on me, both critical and kind.
All cards on the table, my intuition - numb.
I regain confidence as the King of Hearts is found.

Struggling with second thoughts,
its "all or none".
My heart already up for the gamble,
what other sacrifices am I willing to make?
Winner takes all, yes, but I must consider the cost.
My face matches the games' namesake,
my assurance trembles with uncertainty.
Will these expectations be matched?
Can I afford to pay the price asked of me?

This is life - it's a gamble - a blind bet.
Given the hand I'm dealt
I'm doing my best.
It's either "luck of the draw" or favored odds.
Nothing is certain or can be promised.
Perhaps, victory isn't only reliant on a good set
but on my decision regarding
pursuit of happiness.

A gambling addict can lose everything
and a reckless decisions can end in pain.
But, through the unpredictability
I hold evidence of truth in my hand;
the King of Hearts already won my bet.

And so, I gamble.
And so, I pray.
And so, I live
with no regret.

This Drifters' Revelation of a Heartbreak World

I used to have a home. A place I started from. A place to call my own. Bright lights and late nights, the devil took me on a midnight ride, left me out in the desert on my own. Now I feel alone. I need a hand to help me find my way back home. I'm a drifter out on a dead end road trying to find my way back home to get to you. Oh to get to you. Lord, I've been gone for far too long, headed to places I don't belong and I've got to get back home to you. Sometimes I think about the past and the road that I was on, the one that lead me home. I'll walk on another day, I may wander but I'll never stray, cause I found out the hard way sin don't pay. [CHORUS] and when I feel the night is closing in and I can barely breathe the air - I just remember that I've got a friend who really cares, Oh who really cares. I'm a drifter out on a dead end road trying to find my way back home to get to you. Oh to get to you. Lord I've been gone for far too long, headed to places I don't belong and I've got to get back home to You.
-- "Drifter" - Decemberadio

***

Let's all pack up and move this year. We'll slip the liars and disappear. We'll leave memories for auctioneers and those just standing still. They'll miss the taste of wanting you. Call out your name, like I still do. But they haven't said a word that's true and they only hold you down. In this heartbreak world of "just imagine". With it's tired talk of "better days". In this heartbreak world where nothing matters, come on let's make this dream that's barely half awake, come true. Let's move out of Los Angeles and just drive until this summer gives. And forget the lives we used to live, cause we're gone. [CHORUS]
-- "Heartbreak World" - Matt Nathanson

***

My life, has led me down the road that's so uncertain and now I am left alone and I am broken,
trying to find my way, trying to find the faith that's gone. This time, I know that you are holding all the answers. I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances on roads that never seem to be the ones that bring me home. Give me a revelation, show me what to do, 'cause I've been trying to find my way, I haven't got a clue. Tell me should I stay here, or do I need to move? Give me a revelation, I've got nothing without You. I've got nothing without You. My life, has led me down this path that's ever winding. Through every twist and turn I'm always finding that I am lost again (I am lost again). Tell me when this road will ever end! [CHORUS] I don't know where I can turn, tell me when will I learn? Won't You show me where I need to go? Oh oh Let me follow Your lead, I know that it's the only way that I can get back home. [CHORUS] Oh, give me a revelation... I've got nothing without You. I've got nothing without You.
-- "Revelation" - Third Day

Prez Day @ Bryant Park

Farah Angsana Couture Fall 2009 - Bryant Park Tent Show:

What a surreal experience. By the time I finally walked the runway for the very first time; all dressed to impress.... it was incredible. I actually remember thinking, "Wow, I am really doing this. I am really here - Bryant Park, New York Fashion Week." It was a moment. A moment to remember always.

American Idol Almuni & Country Music Star, Miss Kellie Pickler was front row ready to my show =) wearing sky-high stiletto's that made ME nervous!

I wish I was %100 for the experience. Unfortunately, mid-Sunday I was bed-ridden by an intense Migraine. It was miserable to go to the show Monday morning and rough being there, I had a cough and the migraine was progressively worsening. By the time I got home @ around 10am (show call time was 6am) I was shaking uncontrollably from fever. I've been in bed since - still in pain but I'm hoping the worst is over with. I just had some Chicken Noodle Soup... more like broth, carrots and a few pieces of chicken. Amazing how they get away with more carbs than protein? it IS called, "Chicken" then "Noodle" then "Soup" right? so how come the second listed ingredient (noodle) is about quadruple the amount of the first (chicken)? Grrr

Anyways, I'm popping pills and antibiotics. Sipping on some orange juice now. Not in the mood for food at all - but tough luck I guess. xoxo

Everybody stay healthy! Thank goodies you can't catch anything from my blog =)

"David after Dentist"

I just thought this was hysterically, hilarious... but then again, I laugh at tragedy lol

'tws the eve of Valentines

so many shots.... so many men.... so little time.... so not interesting to me. LOL

here's just a random video of last nights "excitement" next time ill try to get footage of the actual party.




*sigh* and tonight I'm working a party in midtown ... woohoo I'm SO excited =) (sarcasm anyone?)

xoxo wishing all my LoveBugs a blessed Valentines Day! Don't hate me 'cause I'm single =) I know you're jealous lol